I joined a gym about two weeks ago and I am really enjoying it.  I’ve never liked going to the gym before - it was always like torture (especially the elliptical).

As a general rule, I prefer to get my exercise outside on walks or bikerides, stuff like that.  Plus, my job is pretty active too.  The only reason I actually joined was because it’s been so freaking cold lately, too cold for me to do stuff outside after working outside all day.

I think the reason I am actually enjoying working out at the gym now is because this is the first time I have gone to it from a positive standpoint.  I’m not going because I hate my body or I “need” to lose weight or as a punishment for eating something.  I’m not going in and comparing my body to all the other people in there.  I’m going in because I want to be healthy and fit and maybe just a little better toned.  And I like my body and I like myself, which is a great feeling, even if it’s a lot of work after 30+ years of emotional and psychological abuse (and sometimes I still falter).

I’m only doing what I can physically and not pushing myself too much (mostly).

Anyway, I have been working the last few months on making positive changes in my life and I am really feeling an improvement. I wanted to share this with you guys, my friends, because I hope you are all feeling better about things too.

Now I just need to not drop on the stair stepper because I don’t have a fucking rescue inhaler. XD