[flowerais]

there is always a chance of a new beginning. this time next year you can be a completely different person. you can decide when you’ve had enough and when you want to drop every personal burden and every thought that’s been dragging you down and start with a completely fresh outlook on everything. it is your choice to do what you’re scared of and ask for help or venture beyond the world you’ve always known. it’s your choice to do something that terrifies you but you know will teach you worthwhile lessons and make you feel alive. you can decide to stop caring about little things like what people think and learn a new language, start jogging, remove thoughts and coping mechanisms that just make you feel worse, and take care of yourself with genuine love and attention. because you can decide when you wake up every morning whether you want to continue feeling stuck and unloved by your own body and searching for empty validation, or taking the first step to living the life you’ve always wanted and doing things that make you excited to get out of bed. even though you feel like everything is hopeless, you have more control of your life than it feels and you’re stronger and smarter than you think you are. you won’t heal completely immediately but it is the first step and you deserve to keep trying because you deserve to know a life outside the one you’re living.