I think there's always going to be a small part of me that wants to lose weight, just because of the culture I grew up in and the experiences I had around food and body image when I was young. And I think accepting that part of me is just as important as accepting that there's no safe and healthy way to exert longterm control over the way my body stores fat. I can be compassionate and gentle towards the hurt part of myself that wants to be thin without indulging its demands or validating its viewpoint. And I don't have to eliminate it entirely in order to heal.
ALTfuuuuuuuuck
